forgiveness by Kai Markell

I have hurt everyone in my life...


Destroyed every meaningful relationship...

Extinguished every beautiful Light...

Bit every extended hand...

Now I exist in the darkest hole of my own creation...

...Hoping to quietly fade away in the endless blackness...

Erasing myself from every painful memory of yours...

Being forgotten is all I could offer...

But I was blinded...

By the brightest, most intense Light...

Shining down on me...

Your endless love...

And as I close my eyes forever...

I can finally see...

Your loving forgiveness...

The only beacon of hope...

As I cross the darkest river of pain... To forgive myself...

The Elephant in the Room

Today has been an unbelievably long day. The tension in my house is so thick, that it is affecting my physical being. I can feel the pressure, sense the stress. Now I'm sitting around waiting for the explosion to happen. I know it's gonna happen. I've been watching it build.
It's like walking around the elephant and stepping over the poop, all the time ignoring the elephant and pretending it's not there.
I have learned not to interfere or ask.
I learned the hard way. I was just trying to help, but my help is not wanted. I was told to butt out.

Apathy

Apathy believes in nothing, cares for nothing, seeks to know nothing, interferes with nothing, enjoys nothing, hates nothing, finds purpose in nothing, lives for nothing, and remains alive because there is nothing for which it will die. ~ Dorothy Sayers

not tolerated

God is the record keeper.... Let Him avenge "the wrong" and "reward the right" You just give it over to Him! Don't waste a lifetime trying to convince someone to love or like you... Go where u are celebrated, not tolerated!