Every day is like a frickin' roller coaster. I never know from one minute to the next what's gonna happen. Job, husband, kids, home. Today, in my morning rant I said that my options for today go something like this. Work in my home office or clean my house. That's it! There are no other options for a caregiver when the person you are caring for is too weak to do anything. And lately the weakness and exhaustion has become so bad to the point of having to be on oxygen all the time. But it's not helping. This "watching and waiting" thing is really frustrating. Heart breaking and frustrating. I go back and forth between sadness and anger, then mixed with a little hope. Then my husband says something like "I sure do appreciate you" and I end up in tears. I don't want to be angry but I'm assuming that it's just part of the process that we have to go through. I think it makes him feel bad when I cry. And he cries with me sometimes. I will say that this whole ordeal has brought us closer together, which is a good thing. I'm glad to know that my marriage is strong enough to endure the "sickness" and "poorer"part of the vows.
When I met him, and married him, he was the picture of health. Tall, strong, muscular. I believed that we would grow old together, and after the kids were grown we would enjoy the active senior life. Travel! Fun! Friends! Huh! Not! Oh, we did for a while. Lots of travel. As a matter of fact, we traveled for the entire month of November! Then November 30th came. I guess we overdid? The only places we go now are church, and the doctors. Woo-hoo! Not real exciting.
But our love for each other is strong. We have
weathered so many storms together and come
out better for it. We have seen our share of up's
and down's, triumph's and failure's. We have
survived being married to each other. 3 kids,
4 grandkids, 32 years of marriage, richer,
poorer, sickness, health, faithfulness and
unfaithfulness. We have seen it all. And
we are still standing. Well I'm sitting and
he's resting in his chair, but you know what I mean.
weathered so many storms together and come
out better for it. We have seen our share of up's
and down's, triumph's and failure's. We have
survived being married to each other. 3 kids,
4 grandkids, 32 years of marriage, richer,
poorer, sickness, health, faithfulness and
unfaithfulness. We have seen it all. And
we are still standing. Well I'm sitting and
he's resting in his chair, but you know what I mean.
